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“DeLeeuw debuts with a strange tale seething with disturbing psychological overtones. . . . Hitchcock would have loved the premise.”
—Kirkus

In This Way I Was Saved

On a chilly November afternoon, six-year-old Luke Nightingale’s life changes forever.

On the playground across from the Metropolitan Museum of Art, he encounters Daniel. Soon the boys are hiding from dinosaurs and shooting sniper rifles. Within hours, Luke and his mother, Claire, are welcoming Daniel into their Upper East Side apartment—and their lives.

Daniel and Luke are soon inseparable. With his parents divorcing, Luke takes comfort in having a near-constant playmate. But there’s something strange about Daniel, who is more than happy to bind himself to the Nightingales. The divorce has cut Luke’s father out of the picture, and as his increasingly fragile mother struggles with the insidious family depression, Daniel—shrewd, adventurous, and insightful—provides Luke both recreation and refuge.

As Luke grows from a child to an adolescent to a young man, he realizes that as much as his mother needs him, Daniel needs him more. Jealous of Luke’s other attachments, Daniel’s gestures of friendship turn into increasingly sinister manipulations. In the end, Luke finds himself in a daily battle for control of his own life—wondering whether he or Daniel will emerge victorious.

Reviews

 “DeLeeuw debuts with a strange tale seething with disturbing psychological overtones. . . . Hitchcock would have loved the premise.”
—Kirkus

"Original, subversive, funny, twisted, and totally engrossing, In This Way I Was Saved is a mind-bending tour de force. I read the last page, flipped back to the beginning, and immediately started it again."
–Chelsea Cain, author of New York Times bestsellers Heartsick and Sweetheart

“Spellbinding.”
—Publishers Weekly

"In This Way I Was Saved is a frightening, gripping tale about a sadistic secret sharer, a shadow self who is ready to devour its host. This is one of the most fascinating and controlled first novels I've ever read -- a sustained performance that hypnotizes and terrifies the reader."
- Edmund White, author of A Boy's Own Story

“A story of friendship and betrayal, violence, madness, lust and power that will keep you guessing until the very last page—and leave you gasping for air.”
—Bookpage

"In this original, inventive debut, Brian DeLeeuw delivers a suspenseful and surprisingly tender psychological thriller that gives physical shape to the torment of isolation."
- Helen Schulman, author of A Day At The Beach

“Suspenseful and terrifying.”
—Library Journal (starred review)

“Mysterious, psychologically craggy and highly readable.”
—Time Out New York

“Creepily compelling.”
—The Daily Mail

“DeLeeuw’s precise, vivid prose has that visceral power of both a successful psychological thriller and a gripping ghost story.”
—The Daily Telegraph

“Terrifying and terrifyingly good.”
-Vanity Fair

"Elegant, unsettling and wildly original, In This Way I Was Saved reads like a coming-of-age-story with the heart of a nasty thriller."
- Gillian Flynn, author of Sharp Objects and Dark Places

"Assured, unnerving first novel . . . . DeLeeuw's fine, taut prose conjures vivid images that hint at danger. . . . Haunting and persuasive."
-Los Angeles Times

"In This Way I Was Saved gave me chills, not only for its dead-on depiction of the searing loneliness of a hermetically sealed mind, but because it is so thrillingly well-executed. A superb first novel."
- Kate Christensen, author of Trouble and The Great Man